Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Hearts go out
On Friday night, we played a fun, fantastic show in Fredricksburg, VA. The show was used as a fundraiser for the Christian school there and in return we had over 900 kids and parents show up to support the school. All profits went to the school...so it was really cool to help out the school.
I was struggling with sickness all week, but we went out and rocked it! And the crowd was INCREDIBLE. It hadn't been since Blake performing on tour that I'd heard so many little girls scream that loud. It was crazy. And the boys put on a great show. My voice was cracking in and out, but it's nice to have the band steady behind me.
It was a great show.
After the show, about 400 people stuck around for autographs and pictures. I was wasted. I went back to our green room to get some rest before we packed up. As I sat in the little conference room that was acting as our green room, I heard sobs and whimpers coming from what sounded like teenage girls down the hall.
I wandered down to see if whoever was crying was okay. As I asked, an adult came up and whispered that a senior girl was driving to the concert and had been in a two-car accident and was killed instantly.
My world nearly caved in. I can not imagine what that family and church and school are going through. My heart breaks with every thought for the family.
I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is in control. But sometimes it's hard to reconcile how God is okay with taking a girl so full of promise, so great by all accounts. It echoes the sentiments we all felt with Amanda leaving us far too early. I don't understand it.
Call it naivety. Call it faith. But I choose to believe that God is in control, somehow. I don't think God was surprised by this, nor do I feel He finds pleasure in our pain. Yet, he uses our pain to build our faith and His kingdom.
But sometimes I can't help but wonder why.
But, ultimately, my questions are irrelevant. My deeper thoughts on God and faith mean nothing. All that matters is that a family is hurting. Deeply. And my heart...I don't think I'm going too far out on a limb to say, our hearts...go out to them.
Please keep the family and friends in prayer.
Her name was Kelsey Orndorff.