Monday, June 08, 2009
...life changed for me. Not really sure why. Not really sure how. But I woke up yesterday and it finally clicked.
I was an athlete my whole life. I played basketball at a pretty good level in high school and college. Ran track. Tied the DOD high school record for the 200m my junior year. I was athletic. Then life after college happened. I don't make excuses. I ate the same as I always did - a lot - but without all the exercise to go along with it, weight gain happened.
Now, here I am at 31. I took a stab at health a year ago. But it didn't take. I think in processing it now, it was because I was doing it for everyone else. I wanted everyone to go "Wow, he lost weight". I've never been good at doing what other people want me to do. Just my character for some reason.
But yesterday I woke and it finally clicked. I don't care if I lose weight. I just want to be athletic again. Obviously weight loss will probably happen if I'm becoming athletic. But I want to enjoy athletic things again. I want to go play basketball and be able to play more than 15 minutes. I just want to enjoy more than music again. I've worked really hard to be great at what I do...still working. But I'm ready to focus on other things now.
So I woke up yesterday. And I copied my dad. In his late 30's my dad was fat. He just decided one day he wanted to play basketball again. So, one day, he just went out and ran as far as he possibly could before he collapsed. Then he walked back home. First day, he ran less than a quarter of a mile. Within a year, he was running 5-6 miles a day 3-4 times a week. And he got skinny. But more importantly, he played basketball again. With me.
So, I'm starting a diet. Not rigorous. From all I've read lately, it's about doing things in steps. I'm limiting myself to 2k or less calories a day. Plus exercise.
Yesterday, I ran 1/3 of a mile and walked back home. Embarrassing? Yeah. But only to myself. Today I ran almost a half mile and walked back home. And I should note that I'm running up and down hills here. I'm tired.
But it's a good tired. 'Cuz this is for me now. Not anyone else.